Explanations and Confessions

I have a confession to make. My confession is that I'm obsessed with food. It consumes my thoughts 24/7. My mind is always on my next meal, whether it be healthy or unhealthy. So, now that I've lost all this weight, my challenge has been to figure out how to work around this, and use this "addiction" to my advantage.

Here's what I've come up with to help me feel in control: I eat 5 times a day, with a very strict calorie amount for each meal. I eat around 2000 calories a day, and try to drink as much water as I can. That's what my trainer and I have come up with, along with my amount of exercise, to maintain my weight and muscle mass.

On a typical Monday-Friday

My breakfast is my biggest meal, and it's usually around 650 calories.(Around 6 a.m)- I usually eat a banana, yogurt covered raisins, and have a Jillian Michael's protein shake--along with either oatmeal, cream of wheat, grits, or Eggo (am I allowed to use brand names?) waffles or pancakes. It's my favorite meal of the day and I always have it right after my run in the morning. I'll also have a couple of cups of coffee after because the caffeine is supposed to work wonders on your metabolism, according to a few sources that I've read. (Not to mention the caffeine boost! :) )
-3 hours later (9 a.m), I'll have a snack, which has a 300 calorie limit-usually a fruit, cheese, and some sort of carb thing like teddy grahams or crackers)
-A bit later (11:30 a.m. or so, depending on when my students eat lunch), I'll eat my lunch, which has a 550 calorie limit. This usually incorporates a sandwich/lean cuisine, some sort of vegetable (usually carrots with ranch), and sometimes yogurt.
-3 hours later (2:30 p,m.) , I'll have another snack, which has a 300 calorie limit. This is always some sort of fruit and a Fiber One* (again, are brand names okay?) bar. I always enjoy this snack because it feels like I'm "cheating" when I'm really not.
-3 hours later (5:30-6:00 p.m.), I'll eat a small 200 calorie dinner. This is either a pre-measured salad, pasta salad, popcorn w/ a veggie (edamame, cucumber, cherry tomatoes, etc...), pretzels w/ a veggie (edamame, cucumber, cherry tomatoes etc...), pimento cheese sandwich, or turkey and cheese wraps.

Since I'm eating every few hours, I never feel hunger pangs, so I think that this is a reasonable solution to my obsession with food, without overeating. This is not 100% perfect. I've had a lot of success with this plan, but I've had a couple of days where I've had some bad overeating episodes- (yesterday included.)

Yes, I overate yesterday. As I mentioned in my previous post, I'm strict during the week, but I slack on the weekends. So, in addition to fast food on Saturday (been chinese food lately), yesterday, I got my coffee w/ pumpkin bread, went out to eat (Jason's Deli), had a sweet treat (a PB/Oreo milkshake), and then indulged in 5 pieces of pizza. However, I'm trying very hard to not punish myself for it. I've jumped back on the bandwagon and eaten normally today, stayed well hydrated, and done my exercise. I do feel quite swollen, but that's to be expected, I guess. I just have to hope that the exercise will help me bounce back.

Does anyone else experience these types of things? This is consuming my life, but I think there are worse things to be thinking about. Any advice/comments would be appreciated and welcome.