Well, yesterday marks the 15th day of being "sugar binge free." That doesn't mean I haven't wanted to, and it doesn't mean I don't think about sweets every second, but I've resisted bingeing for 15 days.
My body feels better. It may not look better, and I think the pounds from it will stay with me, but that's okay. Perhaps my body was begging for something it needed... I don't know. All I know is that I'm back under control, for now. I have no plans to stop exercising, and my fitness level is beyond what I thought possible for me. I have to believe that along with that, and my binge-free eating, my weight will stabilize at where my body is comfortable. I have to trust that my body knows what's right for it.
I realize that my blog is probably very boring. I only talk about my abnormal food and weight issues. I really should start talking about other aspects of my life, but to be quite honest, my life isn't very exciting. I prefer to be alone as opposed to being with a big group of people. I don't party often enough. I'm not a big risk taker and I never have been. I can't dance (which is weird considering my background in music.) My life consists of family, teaching, exercising, eating, sleeping, and Bella (my adorable 2 year old dachshund.)
I'm 25 and I'm single. Perhaps this is because I'm shy and I don't go out much. Perhaps it's because I'm not pretty/hot/attractive, etc... to men. Perhaps it's because my job is comprised primarily of females, most of which are taken/married, or have their own groups they mingle with. However, if/when I meet the guy I'm going to marry, I want it to happen naturally and within my comfort zone. I don't want to meet him at some bar or some club because that's not my normal venue and I wouldn't want to give anyone the wrong idea about my personality. I've tried the online stuff and the blind dates, but really, what are the chances that it's going to work out on a blind date? Slim to None! I'm not knocking internet dating or blind dates, it just hasn't worked for me, and again, I'm not much of a risk taker. So I guess I'm out of luck, unless I meet someone at my gym, or the population of male teachers my age drastically increases in the teaching profession!
Well, that's it from me today. Anyone have any ideas on how I can put myself out there, but still remain within my comfort zones? Suggestions are welcome and appreciated! :) Off to the gym!
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